Wealth

We talk a lot about wealth in this country, primarily in the form of money or net worth. It seems to be primarily what we value, and the accumulation and hoarding of vast amounts of money, companies, and real estate holdings is held out as the American dream. The few who manage to do this are, in America, also labeled geniuses and seen as role models.

It hasn’t always been this way, as I’m reminded every December when I watch A Christmas Carol. (My personal favorite is the George C. Scott version, but I also enjoy Scrooged with Bill Murray, and the Muppets do a good one too.) Scrooge’s hoarding of wealth, obsession with money, and lack of feeling for anyone else are very pointedly criticized by Dickens—they are flaws of character, and sins for which he is forging a chain of penance to bear in the afterlife, “link by link, and yard by yard”. He has no connection to the people around him, and only seems to care about his business, which Dickens drives home with the image of Scrooge not leaving his money changing house even when his partner dies. These are not subtle messages, open to other interpretations. Scrooge is a bad dude.

The thing that finally breaks Scrooge is the reality of his own death coming, the realization that no one will care, and that his money will not insulate him. Even in this moment, he is selfish. Fear for himself is the final straw, piled on top of the reminders of Christmases past and the brutal realities of Christmas present; had Christmas Future stopped with the death of Tiny Tim, would that have been enough to motivate the change in Scrooge? We’ll never know.

The movies tend to portray Scrooge’s transformation as happening overnight, but I think the ghosts only opened the door to his change. Transformation is a process, not a moment, but however that door was opened, Scrooge walked through it. As anyone who has ever tried to break a lifelong habit knows, that motivation day one is powerful, but it doesn’t last. It is so easy to slide back into what is familiar, which is what I think Dickens was dangling when he had Scrooge give Bob Cratchit hell for being late. To continue the transformation is a day-to-day slog, which takes effort, constant re-motivation, and positive feedback. The thing that kept him going, helped him keep his word, was the positive reception he received when he changed. The people around him believed he could, they welcomed him in, and they showed him what joy and companionship could feel like.

This is the wealth no one ever talks about. It is the wealth of relationship, and knowing there are people who see you for who you are and love you “as is”. It is the wealth of knowing true joy, where happiness comes from what you pour out of your cup for others, and not from what you hold to yourself. It is the wealth of understanding that the real treasure is receiving the love and trust of another human being because they have determined you are safe. It is a wealth held by millions of people who may lack every other kind of wealth the world acknowledges.

I believe it is this wealth that Scrooge is really chasing but doesn’t understand until the end. There is never going to be enough money to fill a hole that comes from a lack of love, companionship, and joy, but that is where he hangs his hopes. He fears losing what he has accumulated, vilifies taxes and charities, sees himself as the hard-working hero, and walls himself off more and more as the years go by. His isolation and ego make him cruel and cold. He perceives poverty as a failing of character or morals, and dismisses and denigrates those in need. He is only, finally, spurred to change by the realization that he desperately wants someone to care and that time is running out for him.

Year after year, people sit 5th row center in theaters watching A Christmas Carol and the point flies completely over their heads. They shell out hundreds of dollars per seat for a show depicting disdain for the excesses of monetary wealth. Just as Scrooge snuffs out the light of truth with Christmas Past, these folks ignore the message and joke about ghosts and Tiny Tim. They don’t see that the hole in Scrooge’s heart mirrors their own.

I have discovered through my years on this earth that wealth manifests in a lot of ways: joy, love, community, laughter, art, beauty, nature, and yes, money. Money has a place in greasing the wheels of life, but shouldn’t be our lives. It shouldn’t define who we are, or be the driver behind everything we do, or be the only factor in making decisions for ourselves or our businesses. When the day comes for me to face my own Christmas Future end, I hope to not look back wishing I had laughed more, loved more, or been in community more. I hope that monetary wealth will be the last thing on my mind.

Merry Christmas, and may the days ahead bring you the wealth of love, joy, and companionship.

Business!’ cried the Ghost, wringing its hands again. “Mankind was my business; charity, mercy, forbearance, and benevolence, were, all, my business. The deals of my trade were but a drop of water in the comprehensive ocean of my business!”
― Charles Dickens, A Christmas Carol

Connections

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I swam for 8 years in the Northern Virginia area. I swam for a summer league team with over 100 members, my high school team of over 40 kids, and a year round club team which had between 600 and 800 members, over 50 of which swam at my practice site on a regular basis. I have no friends from that experience. None. Zip. Zero. Nada. Not even one peripheral acquaintance located on Facebook. Given the thousands of hours I spent in this pursuit, that is a sad and pitiful statistic.

Given my own experience, it has been an ongoing wonder for me to watch my swimmers interact and build friendships. I have to confess that there were times I simply didn’t understand when a kid changed teams (or refused to, despite bad coaching) because “that’s where their friends were”.  I have learned from them how much better the intensity of practice and the stress of meets can be when shared with people you care about. I have learned, mostly from my high school team, that the motivation for attending a 5:30am practice can be gleaned from the sharing of the misery. I have learned that while parents and coaches can say a lot, the most powerful words come from your friends. The swimmers I’ve coached have taught me what my own experience lacked.

That emotional connection, that love, is truly the glue that holds it all together, as well as the prize that makes it all worthwhile. Having folks in your corner, cheering for you and rooting for your success, offering a hug and a shoulder when things don’t go well…isn’t that what we all want? Whether it’s a dozen people, or just that one best friend, no one matters quite the way those friends do. They are the lift, the security blanket, the laughter, the tears, the scream of joy, the quiet understanding, the ones who are there solely because they want to be. They are the ones our eyes seek first, the ones who will understand best both our joy and our disappointment, the ones who do not judge or critique or point out where we went wrong. They are the ones who know when we are not feeling well, or having relationship issues, or family problems, or ate too much ice cream. They are the ones willing to go to bat for us and ask for help when we can’t ask for ourselves.

While I know that my attention and presence were important to my swimmers, they taught me how much more crucial that friend, that love connection, was to their growth and success. They have friends that are friends away from the pool, friends they will keep because they laughed and cried and understood and cheered and hugged and sang songs and offered a towel and sometimes just stood there next to them. I’m glad I got to see it, and share in its warmth.